Being a healer is a double-edged sword. I am reading a wonderful book titled, “Anna, The Voice of the Magdalenes” by Claire Heartsong. I found myself identifying with one of the Magdalenes in particular in her story.
She says, “I was resolutely determined to to heal and remove suffering from as many beings as possible. I wanted to find a way to remove the suffering from those that were deeply tormented within their souls, those twisted of body or mind. I could see and feel the immensity of what they were carrying. I could see the energy of attached, disembodied spirits. I found I could assist these spirits to let go of their hosts and move on in their journey. I wanted to learn more skillful and effective ways of doing this kind of healing.”
This, in and of itself, is a fine goal as long as the ego is not involved. The ability to detach and not have to be the savior of a soul is a fine line for many healers. She continues: “…the healer/rescuer that does battle with that which it judges to be the “evil” cause of disease and suffering. I was still attached to an agenda of ‘healing’ something that ‘I’ judged bad and harmful—something ‘I’ deemed did not have the right to express ‘just as it is’ within the play of duality. I created a stage upon which to play out ‘righteous indignation’ and ‘spiritual superiority.’ I did not know that my insistence on healing them was the same victimizing consciousness that was resisting being healed.”
This is a concept I have struggled with for many lifetimes. Now, I can step back and see that suffering has its place and can lead a soul to its own awareness. Now I tend to hold space, to create a space between God and the soul who is challenged, that assists them in finding their way out. It is not up to me to save anyone; all I can do is give them permission and validate their journey. Look at your own spiritual practice and find any places the ego is stuck wanting to be ‘The One’ who heals souls. I have used this story as a great way to separate from the unconscious ego parts that have driven me through many lifetimes. I can now step back and give it up to Source, who sees all, knows all and accepts all. As a healer it is great to be free of trying to play God in any way. I hope this look at the role of a healer, can assist you along your path! Namaste.
Mary Bell Nyman is the Director of Psychic Horizons Center in Boulder, CO and originally wrote this for the August/September 2014 Newsletter. If you repost this message, or any portion thereof, please give credit to Rev. Mary Bell Nyman, www.psychichorizonscenter.org.
